Judgmental
While I have known for the better part of my life, it has come to my attention this holiday season that my entire family thinks of me as judgmental. Me? Judgmental? Haha yeah sometimes. Sorry, I can't help it. I think I use it as a crutch. I do it without even meaning to. It's a shielding mechanism. I'm not good at letting people into my life. Even those that I have let into my life, I've left many friendships feeling betrayed and hurt.
Okay so yeah I'm pretty judgmental. Do I get points if I admit that? I like to think of myself as a fairly intelligent person. When stupid things are sent my way, my only way to respond to them is negatively. It at least gives the person time to adjust their future approach. Maybe they don't even know that they're being stupid or are proposing an idiotic idea. I've taken it upon myself to let them know the truth.
Obviously, many people don't appreciate my idea of the truth. Which is why I'm here writing this post. My family likes to joke around that whoever I marry, will probably be the greatest person on the face of the planet since they'll have my approval. They're probably right. I like to think of myself as a 45 or 50 year old woman stuck in the body of a 22-year-old. Maybe I was just born in the wrong decade, or wrong universe. Sometimes it seems like I was.
I'm trying to work on being less judgmental. Honestly? It's really hard. I've been working on giving people the benefit of the doubt. I do the best when I get to know someone and when they get to know me. Many people who get to know me, later tell me they were intimidated by me when we first met. Meanwhile, I'm over here trying to live my best life and make friends. I would classify myself as an introvert so the fact that I'm even out there trying to make new friends, is out of my comfort zone. Although, it has become easier for me as I've traveled by myself more and applied to jobs where I knew no one.
So if you ever see me, just know that the intimidating face is really just a mask I put on in order to survive the play. Am I judgmental? Yeah. But I'm also honest, and I'll be that friend who tells you to put away your bullshit and face the problem head on. I'll be your biggest cheerleader, and someone who can offer advice when need be. I just hope you can look past my first impression and really get to know me.
Okay so yeah I'm pretty judgmental. Do I get points if I admit that? I like to think of myself as a fairly intelligent person. When stupid things are sent my way, my only way to respond to them is negatively. It at least gives the person time to adjust their future approach. Maybe they don't even know that they're being stupid or are proposing an idiotic idea. I've taken it upon myself to let them know the truth.
Obviously, many people don't appreciate my idea of the truth. Which is why I'm here writing this post. My family likes to joke around that whoever I marry, will probably be the greatest person on the face of the planet since they'll have my approval. They're probably right. I like to think of myself as a 45 or 50 year old woman stuck in the body of a 22-year-old. Maybe I was just born in the wrong decade, or wrong universe. Sometimes it seems like I was.
I'm trying to work on being less judgmental. Honestly? It's really hard. I've been working on giving people the benefit of the doubt. I do the best when I get to know someone and when they get to know me. Many people who get to know me, later tell me they were intimidated by me when we first met. Meanwhile, I'm over here trying to live my best life and make friends. I would classify myself as an introvert so the fact that I'm even out there trying to make new friends, is out of my comfort zone. Although, it has become easier for me as I've traveled by myself more and applied to jobs where I knew no one.
So if you ever see me, just know that the intimidating face is really just a mask I put on in order to survive the play. Am I judgmental? Yeah. But I'm also honest, and I'll be that friend who tells you to put away your bullshit and face the problem head on. I'll be your biggest cheerleader, and someone who can offer advice when need be. I just hope you can look past my first impression and really get to know me.
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