Consistency

I've honestly done a horrible fucking job keeping this blog updated. Most of my days are boring and repetitive. Like I wrote before, I have no inspiration or motivation. I've been reading a lot lately and going to movies.

I used to be able to sit down, and I'd have a free verse poem flow right out of my head and onto the page.

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  1. No MentholSeptember 15, 2018 at 6:45 PM

    feel this. when i lost my muse i felt lost. finding it again has been tough. i feel words existing but they fail to form words

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