To all the boys I've loved before
So Netflix just released this movie. Apparently it's based on a book. I decided to give it a watch, especially since the main character is Asian and I feel as though we are extremely underrepresented in mainstream media.
What I didn't expect, was to find it oddly comforting and relatable. Lara Jean is a 16 year old girl who is navigating the high school scene. She's going about her business being invisible, when her younger sister, unbeknownst to Lara Jean, decides to mail out all of the letters she has written to past boys she has liked/loved. Lara Jean has been writing these letters for awhile, and writes down her feelings because they're overwhelming. When pressed about why she isn't in a relationship, she confesses that her romance novels give her an escape, but when it becomes real she gets scared and runs away. She confesses that it is easier to shut people out, so that she won't ever get hurt. Which really isn't realistic, but she has managed to do so her entire life.
I confess that I think it's easier to shut people out, so that I don't get hurt. Because who wants to get hurt? Not me. You know that saying it's better to have loved and lost, then never have loved? Yeah, I've never experienced that kind of love, so personally I would rather spare my emotions. I agree with Lara Jean in that no one has liked me like that, except for those that I don't reciprocate the feelings with. I've never seen the point in stringing people along or giving people false impressions. It's cruel, and you're probably keeping them from finding their person. I'll also admit that I feel as though every guy I've liked has never liked me back, or they're pining after a friend or another girl. Honestly, it sucks. But, I'm also cautious because what if I actually don't like them, but like them because they like someone else. I'm going after people I know will never like me back, which gives me a false sense of security.
Honestly, it's hard to explain. So most of the time I stay quiet. I don't really talk to other people about this because honestly, I don't think they would understand. I want to find the love that my parents have for each other. Like my grandpa and grandma had. I know it's out there, I guess I'm just going to have to be patient. I hope that one day, I find someone that's worth the risk.
What I didn't expect, was to find it oddly comforting and relatable. Lara Jean is a 16 year old girl who is navigating the high school scene. She's going about her business being invisible, when her younger sister, unbeknownst to Lara Jean, decides to mail out all of the letters she has written to past boys she has liked/loved. Lara Jean has been writing these letters for awhile, and writes down her feelings because they're overwhelming. When pressed about why she isn't in a relationship, she confesses that her romance novels give her an escape, but when it becomes real she gets scared and runs away. She confesses that it is easier to shut people out, so that she won't ever get hurt. Which really isn't realistic, but she has managed to do so her entire life.
I confess that I think it's easier to shut people out, so that I don't get hurt. Because who wants to get hurt? Not me. You know that saying it's better to have loved and lost, then never have loved? Yeah, I've never experienced that kind of love, so personally I would rather spare my emotions. I agree with Lara Jean in that no one has liked me like that, except for those that I don't reciprocate the feelings with. I've never seen the point in stringing people along or giving people false impressions. It's cruel, and you're probably keeping them from finding their person. I'll also admit that I feel as though every guy I've liked has never liked me back, or they're pining after a friend or another girl. Honestly, it sucks. But, I'm also cautious because what if I actually don't like them, but like them because they like someone else. I'm going after people I know will never like me back, which gives me a false sense of security.
Honestly, it's hard to explain. So most of the time I stay quiet. I don't really talk to other people about this because honestly, I don't think they would understand. I want to find the love that my parents have for each other. Like my grandpa and grandma had. I know it's out there, I guess I'm just going to have to be patient. I hope that one day, I find someone that's worth the risk.
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