GraceMarie's Adventure Blog

One of my teachers from high school, just announced on Facebook that he has decided to stop treatment for his cancer. He has been fighting this particular battle for over two years. I cannot begin to imagine what he and his family is currently going through. I know that it is an incredibly difficult journey. We lost my grandma to lung cancer a few years back and it was heartbreaking watching her go through treatments. Her health deteriorated and before we knew it, she was gone. I was getting that phone call, to plan to come home for a few days so we could attend the memorial. I think it's easy to forget that we have expiration dates. Some sooner than others. We are so privileged to live the lives that we do. Let's not take any day for granted. Be spontaneous. Hold tight to the ones that you love. Don't be afraid of falling, because you will. Don't try and fit into a perfect little box, that tells you how to live your life. Be adventurous. If you're not happy wit...

🎝 Know that means I'll have to leave Lately, I've been, I've been thinking I want you to be happier, I want you to be happier 🎝 Sometimes (a lot of times), I think it's easier to put others needs in front of your own. Or to continuously try to make something work, when you know that it probably won't. We try to make things work because we think that they should but we end up losing a part of ourselves, or our happiness. We all deserve to be happy. We all deserve to find love--whether it be from a parent, a sibling, a friend, or a significant other. But what if we are continuously making sacrifices, and then find ourselves lost in the process? When is it time to tell that other person that they'd be better off without you or better off in a different situation?

One of the most frustrating things that I have found in my short 23 years of life, is that I don't feel like many people understand me. This can manifest itself in multiple ways. But mainly I don't feel like I can be fully myself. Sure, my family is the exception. There's something about living with them 24/7 that you don't feel the need to hold back anything (in my family's case, that means long descriptions of bodily functions-yuck). Anyways, to get back on topic. Sometimes, I feel myself just wanting to scream. UNDERSTAND ME. Or--let me trust you enough to let you know all my secrets. I find myself wondering if anyone else feels this way? Or am I alone in this? I have first hand experience-it's hard letting people in. It's really fucking hard. Because once you do-that's when you can be hurt the most. But we can't go about hiding our true selves forever, can we? How lonely that would be.

Sarah was seething, although this anger seemed to be manifesting from a misunderstanding. She could feel that she was angry with Peter for not understanding. She was angry with Peter, but knew that she shouldn't be. The whole night had been a disaster. Sarah had thrown this party at the beach house. She meant for it to be an intimate gathering but it had turned into people getting drunk and unruly. It wasn't what she had planned. She was cleaning up after people, rather than spending time with Peter. The whole point of the freaking party was to spend some quality time with him, but instead she had sunken into herself and played the mother role. She put the fabricated needs of others before herself, and now she was blaming Peter. She knew that it was stupid. Yet, the whole night had been so draining. She needed to direct her anger somewhere and it had ended up being on him. He of course knew her playbook. He knew that when she confronted him, he was going to just lay low and...